Category: Stream of Consciousness

  • Free will.

    I have found myself neck deep in the morass of Wikipedia researching the concept of free will because I’m curious as to whether or not I believe in it. I am beginning to suspect that I have changed course on this front and no longer necessarily believe that it exists. There is just a lot…

  • My mind is in the Southwest.

    The Southwest crossed my mind today and I’ve been daydreaming about it ever since. It’s been over a year since we went out to visit our land in Arizona, and I want to get back out and enjoy that freedom again. There is still nothing there, and so much going on here every day that…

  • Scattered success.

    In my attempt to filter the news out of my every day life, I’ve had some success and a few times it has gotten through to me again. I can’t find my way to just parsing all of the topics and sources completely from my feed, because the fear of missing out on something relevant…

  • *fake laugh here*

    My lady love works in corporate America, having worked hard for her education and being able to work from home since 2020. When the company transitioned to remote work, they pivoted their entire corporate structure to support it permanently. This includes real estate dealings, shifting office space for outside leasing, blah blah blah, things that…

  • To protect myself.

    I have spent entirely too much time doom-scrolling through the news lately, getting stuck hard on the political section in particular. I think that for my own peace of mind and to protect myself, I need to disconnect from this behavior as much as humanly possible. Nothing gets solved by my worrying about how this…

  • Highs in the single digits.

    Winter broadsided us this weekend and I have no intention of leaving the house for anything. It is currently -7, and just looking outside sends chills through your body. If there is a saving grace it is the fact that it is a bright, sunny day, and that little bit of solar power helps a…

  • We had COVID.

    The sickness I was describing in my last post turned out to be COVID-19 after all, as revealed by two positive tests on Friday. We both had a decent list of symptoms and had to abandon some plans we had over the weekend for the safety of the company involved. It was sad to have…

  • A rare sickness.

    I seem to have come down with something of a bug, and after a few negative COVID tests, it’s safe to say it’s not that. There are some respiratory aspects to whatever it is, so it could also be the flu or RSV. Or it could be none of the above, and my body is…

  • A personalized rejection.

    My application to write mental health content was personally and politely declined. I received the news from a real person and thanked them for the opportunity to apply and wished them well in 2024. I appreciate seeing someone putting forth the effort to let applicants down gently, and I will continue to seek other opportunities.…

  • Becoming boring.

    I started to write a post about the signs of winter today and realized how boring of a person I have become. The weather concerns me now, apparently. It is more about the general malaise I am beginning to feel considering the low light we are currently experiencing and I know that the shortest day…