Within a week, we’ll be moved back to the country and I find myself in a strange limbo. It is a holding pattern between this small chapter of life and everything that comes after. There is a great anticipation hanging over every thought and feeling, and it makes me hopeful as I look forward. But…

There are days as a writer where the words you’re searching for are nowhere to be found inside or out. You simply cannot force what you’re looking for out from the shadowy corners of your mind. Trying to do so pushes it all further into the recesses, completely out of reach. Then the reality of…

I did the anti-hipster thing and got COVID-19 when it wasn’t cool any more. It hasn’t been too bad, but I’m aware how lucky I am that it didn’t go another way. That time in our history almost feels like it didn’t happen, but I know it did. Like many times in the past, I…

Get fucked. I thought we talked about this. On the first day of March it was in the high 50s and sunny. Two days later we got hit by a snowstorm and since it was borderline temperature wise, the snow was super heavy, wet, and actively melting. It’s a sloppy mess that will take a…

I’ve moved my modest little writing table near a window where I can see the traffic pass by for the remainder of our stay in this small city. Every day as I sit and contemplate more serious matters, I see people in little snapshots of their lives and wonder what concerns them. Not that I…

Moved a car load full of stuff to our country place and now it’s down to the nitty gritty as far as what is left to move. We have enough in the home to be able to live here but not much more. We will be moving ourselves within the next couple of weeks and…

I have spent a little over 4 months living with a person who was experiencing a very active mental health decline and it reminds me to attend to my own needs. Only now, after it is no longer a daily issue to be wrestled with, can I even begin to unpack what I witnessed. This…

My brain decided that I’d be waking up this morning at around 4:00 so I’ve put the time to good use working on some things. I’ve also spent some of the time reflecting on how miraculous it is I didn’t ever go to jail or get killed when I drank. I seriously have no idea…

One year ago on this date, we lost dad. After an all too brief battle with an unseen enemy, he succumbed to his wounds. Proof that even our heroes must die. What followed was still a blurry series of events to this day. I can scarcely recall individual days from the months following his passing,…

Being in this city makes it easy to forget the feelings being in the country provides. We went down with a truck full of items to move and upon arrival, I could feel a sense of peace and possibility rush over me. After 40 years of running laps around the sun, I am finally beginning…