Category: Stream of Consciousness

  • 10 pounds.

    I was placed on a lifting restriction of 10 pounds after surgery and it made me realize how many things I do that are relatively easy for me normally that I take for granted. This also made me realize how much my favorite humans rely on me to be strong enough to do things I…

  • My thoughts on cholecystectomy.

    Years of issues with my gallbladder led up to the decision to get it removed on May 1st, 2023, just a few days ago. Now that I have found my way out of the persistent fog of general anesthesia and past loads of post-operative soreness, I feel I can make some observations. 1.) I was…

  • After many years.

    I have had some fairly significant health issues over the years and one of them in 2011 not only killed me but put me on a medicine indefinitely that a person shouldn’t stay on for years. I never bothered to look into the long term side effects of this medicine (Omeprazole) because I trusted the…

  • Smoke ’em if you got ’em.

    It’s April 20 and we all know what that means… Alright to some of us it is just another Thursday. Of all the roads I have gone down, for some reason, that’s never been one of them. I think I just know myself well enough to know that it isn’t my style. It’s been a…

  • Motivation is absent.

    I have a couple of writing projects that I need to work on and I have exactly zero motivation to do either of them. Today is one of those days where I have no motivation whatsoever and I’m looking high and low for some kind of catalyst to get me going. I’m still a little…

  • Hints of spring.

    I spent several hours outside yesterday afternoon in the sunshine working on getting rid of some trash around the property. It felt great to be able to be outside in just a t-shirt and not have the wind cut through me. This just serves as a reminder that spring actually has started, although it goes…

  • We’ve moved.

    We have officially moved ourselves back to the country. There is an incredible sense of relief that it is done now but I know there is still loads of work to make it ours. Being back takes away the near-constant buzz of living in a city, and there is no overstating how amazing that feels.…

  • He’d have been 44 today.

    Today would have been my brother’s 44th birthday. Yes indeed, he was a St. Patrick’s baby in 1979. He embodied the luck of the Irish, which is always said in jest as a kind of backhanded compliment. He’d have kept up with any local legend on the Emerald Isle and drank with them under any…

  • I want it all to fail.

    The recent bank closures that have shocked the markets and given everyone harrowing reminders of the 2008(ish) global crash have me hoping for a full crash. I want the institutions to feel what we feel when failures occur, but I’m afraid it won’t happen. There is already a discussion of shoring up the entire banking…

  • A strange limbo.

    Within a week, we’ll be moved back to the country and I find myself in a strange limbo. It is a holding pattern between this small chapter of life and everything that comes after. There is a great anticipation hanging over every thought and feeling, and it makes me hopeful as I look forward. But…