When the reality of having to make some kind of living rears its ugly head, it has a way of forcing the creativity right out of me. Some form of hesitation crops up and gets directly in the way every time I try and sit down to write something. It feels as though I am…

One year ago on this day I woke up feeling like complete shit. Another day and night spent drinking to avoid the reality of hating my work. This was the day that broke me of both habits for good. From that day forward, I started to constantly question what role my work played in my…

There is a near-constant flow of thoughts I have that I should be doing more to create. I should be making the world a better place somehow. The direction is not obvious, but appear to be limitless. “Prove it or shut up.” – This becomes the mantra of my mind at any given time. It…

Dear universe: On this, the 20th of November, 2022, I have decided that this will be the last winter I spend fighting the very environment just to exist. I just used the snowblower on what appears to be 5-6″ of snow that has fallen overnight. I understand that people over in New York got that…

A headline just barely scratched the surface today but it should be the only thing anyone is talking about. The crown prince (and prime minister for obvious reasons) of Saudi Arabia has been granted immunity from a trial for ordering the assassination of a journalist. What’s more, the US granted the immunity. …wait what? The…

There is a vision I maintain of who my father was.  Within this encapsulation, there are almost certainly creative liberties I’ve taken to smooth out the rough edges. No man is perfect but am I robbing him of his journey?  The rugged perseverance he had to display to provide is a direct cause of his…

Got paid today for my writing, for the first time ever. The content was garbage but it was easy. I am excited an looking forward to acquiring more writing opportunities.

First week of October I will be taking a much needed road trip with my lady and the dogs. We have no plans whatsoever except a general direction and a full-sized SUV rental to sleep in. We are going to bare bones the whole trip and figure it out as we go. I think the…

A large distraction from being able to fully enjoy and be present in life is the perceived necessity for money, and by extension, our collective obsession with productivity. The cult of productivity has made slaves of even the most well-intentioned people. It’s an illusion but the most persistent kind. I spent years of my life…

Joshua Nash Wagoner passed away on Friday, August 26, 2022. Decades of drug abuse took their final toll when Josh passed away at home. He died as he lived: how he wanted. What killed him was a part of what made him special to those who knew him. The same reckless abandon for consequences that…