Category: Stream of Consciousness

  • Memory lane.

    I’m not exactly sure when she got them, but my mom picked up a bunch of old baseball, basketball, and football cards from the 70s all the way to the early 2000s. They have just been sitting in the basement collecting dust and I figured what the hell, might as well see if anything of…

  • Kill your darlings.

    Today I decided to purge some of the projects that I intended to complete but never got around to. That old saying about being willing to kill your darlings applied all the way through on one of these projects, but after spending zero time on it in months, I committed it to the beyond with…

  • Historic.

    Yesterday, Donald J. Trump, former president of the United States, was convicted of 34 different charges. It was the first time a former president has ever been convicted of any crimes, and it doesn’t even begin to scratch the surface of his criminality. Despite my best efforts to avoid the news, there was no way…

  • Just keep writing.

    I feel prone to riff on an old movie quote “Just keep swimming.” from Finding Nemo today. I have an assignment to complete and I have to keep reminding myself to keep writing so I can get it done today. “Just keep writing, just keep writing, just keep writing, writing, writing.” A little song I…

  • It’s making me a better writer.

    I’d just like to shout out Grammarly because it’s a useful bit of AI-driven technology to make me more mindful about my writing. It is fucking infuriating to see the little blue squiggly line under passages of text but it causes me to examine the patterns I tend to utilize in an effort to make…

  • May has been quick.

    The ever-improving weather outside has been drawing me out to enjoy the sunshine and warmth and it has cost me time I might spend creating. Naturally, this occurs when I need to work on an assignment and I just keep looking outside and remembering that winter is never far away relatively speaking. But being outside…

  • So you want to be a writer?

    If you can’t be talked out of being a writer, allow me to serve as a voice of reason. Just understand that you will want desperately to write about the things you are passionate about and get paid your dream salary right out of the gate. But the world doesn’t reward such randomness. There seems…

  • Whatever that was.

    I recently had a somewhat depressive episode for several days and it was a reminder of how important it is to be proactive about mental health. I have gone a long time without any issues but then suddenly I spent days crushed by the weight of the world. It was everything all the time and…

  • A real retirement story.

    There is an idealized version of retirement that is held up as the gold standard of what we are all supposed to be working towards. This pipe dream was concocted decades ago by the corporate interests that control the country. You work for 40 or more years and spend the entire time being wise with…

  • Resentment.

    It is hard to explain and impossible to justify but I feel a strong sense of resentment welling up inside me. The target of this seems to be those that can’t defend themselves, and it feels irrational to even be feeling this in the first place. I am resentful of my dad and my brother…